Wondering

Wondering when this will be over 

Wondering when the storm will pass 

This hurting feeling is on me 

And I feel I'm slipping 

And I ain’t gonna last 

I get off the phone and I wonder 

What it is, I can do 

That ain’t done for you already 

And I'm afraid to ask 

There ain’t nothing much left in me 

Just hangin on like a thread 

Just about ready to unravel 

And spin down the sink like water 

Felling like all there is, is tears and ash 

I got nothing against you honey, 

It's all been dealt with die been cast.

Some scars are unsightly 

Some scars just fade away 

Some scars come back to haunt a man 

It comes clear to me now 

It never was me with the problem

And I ain’t gonna ask 

Feeling like all we got now 

All it ever was, was tears and ash. 

I won’t be moving on 

I don't leave what I once loved 

I just mourn the loss I turn and toss 

And the cost we paid 

I still lay awake 

One eye on the horizon 

Waiting for the sun to rise 

I gotta make what Evers left last 

Derek Earl Houghton